Me Before You

I love you, but tonight I just want to be me

Photo by Nikola Jovanovic on Unsplash

A black peasant blouse & pinstripe pants

help me to blend into the darkness

of Oakland on a Monday night-

after Pitt, after happy hour,

after you, after me.

I feel the most beautiful in Victorian/Medieval inspired clothing,

so used to dress pants they feel like sweats.

You once told me

you couldn’t love a girl in anything but jeans.

The key is-

I don’t want you tonight

I only want to feel

like me before you again.

I want the gothic hellraiser persona

& wardrobe to match.

I don’t want to be the girl who

compromises for a metalhead.

I want my old skin back, my old skin

that does not include skirts, blue jeans or camoflague.